Thursday, June 17, 2010

happy, sad, happy, sad.....

well it's been an interesting week or so. our family is well. breonna is a walking machine. it's so fun to see her pride as she struts around the house. the older girls are enjoying the summer weather. they love playing out in the water. i love ease dropping to hear what made up situation they've created. oh the simplistic lives of children. this is our first summer together as a family in four years, and we have great plans.
brad was promoted from 2nd lt to 1st lt. not really sure what that means, but i know it come with a pay raise, so i'll take it. he absolutely loves his job and it was wonderful to be part of his ceremony. i'm so proud of him and all he does for our family. he is the love of my life and still after 10 years makes my heart skip a beat when i see him.
just before brad's promotion we learned that he will be deploying early next year. it really hasn't sunk in yet. when i think about it, i get sad. i knew it was coming obviously, but we were originally told aug 2011. so it puts this summer in perspective. everything is turning into, this year we should, we need to, what about....
i think of the impact it will have on the girls. too young to understand, but still affecting them. breonna and him took a long time to become buddies, and how long will it take them again? can i do it on my own? can i be strong enough? it was always over a year away, and now it's closer.
he is very excited. he's one of the last troops that will close out iraq, supposedly. that's from our pres and we know what that means.... nothing. he's excited to go as a lt and a platoon leader. "more action" he says. that makes my stomach flip
so a new page fast approaches our lives.
happy and sad.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

the truth about me

i absolutely love my life. i have a wonderful husband who loves me regardless, three beautiful, healthy girls and we all like each other pretty well. it's easy to say i am very fulfilled.
that being said, here's the truth about me. my house is always just a little untidy. i hate housework. i get tired of it. it's the same thing day in and day out.
i am most always in my work out clothes, aka. pajamas. and that's how it's been for six years. i only change if i'm meeting someone or have an appointment. so yes, i am a chick who wears pj's at walmart.
i hate doing make up. i wouldn't be caught dead without my make up as a teenager, but now it's just a tedious task.
my kids watch more than the recommended two hours of tv a day. then the other hours they're on the computer or ds.
i cannot function without caffeine. it's the absolute first thing i do in the morning. i am truly addicted.
i hate my hair. i'm never happy with it.
i love tattoos. i wish i had more, and i wish mr h had some.
i love to cook, but i hate the clean up. i'd eat out everyday if i could, however that would just add to the 50 lbs i need to lose.
i'm the worst dieter in the world. i almost never last day one.
i like to exercise, but am too lazy to do it regularly.
my favorite thing to do is watch tv in bed.
so that's the truth. i completely understand if half of you remove yourself, and the other half........ welcome to the club.