happy, sad, happy, sad.....

well it's been an interesting week or so. our family is well. breonna is a walking machine. it's so fun to see her pride as she struts around the house. the older girls are enjoying the summer weather. they love playing out in the water. i love ease dropping to hear what made up situation they've created. oh the simplistic lives of children. this is our first summer together as a family in four years, and we have great plans.

brad was promoted from 2nd lt to 1st lt. not really sure what that means, but i know it come with a pay raise, so i'll take it. he absolutely loves his job and it was wonderful to be part of his ceremony. i'm so proud of him and all he does for our family. he is the love of my life and still after 10 years makes my heart skip a beat when i see him.

just before brad's promotion we learned that he will be deploying early next year. it really hasn't sunk in yet. when i think about it, i get sad. i knew it was coming obviously, but we were originally told aug 2011. so it puts this summer in perspective. everything is turning into, this year we should, we need to, what about....

i think of the impact it will have on the girls. too young to understand, but still affecting them. breonna and him took a long time to become buddies, and how long will it take them again? can i do it on my own? can i be strong enough? it was always over a year away, and now it's closer.

he is very excited. he's one of the last troops that will close out iraq, supposedly. that's from our pres and we know what that means.... nothing. he's excited to go as a lt and a platoon leader. "more action" he says. that makes my stomach flip

so a new page fast approaches our lives.

happy and sad.